So, hello world. I don’t exactly know where to start. It’s a new year, fresh beginnings. I admit, I’m one of those people who loves new year. Even though I was quite overwhelmed yesterday by thinking of all those things I want to achieve in 2016. Like becoming a polyglot, write a lot, forgive everyone in my life, especially myself, earn shit loads of money while not overworking myself, take more time for family, friends and myself, watch more movies, read more books, travel way more, learn SEO and put it in practice, exercise daily, eat healthier, have a clean house, make bunch of new things, get rid of things I no longer use and keep the daily meditation practice going. And have lots of fun while doing it all. Okay, now that I wrote all this down, it seems kinda doable. That’s probably because I’m in really good mood and a cup (that has written over it “Screw it, let’s do it!”) of coffee helps too.
Yeeey, first paragraph written! I was having this writing block for a past few months. I was really like “Who tha fuck cares, what’s going on in your life, Anita”. Like I have nothing smart to say and I better keep myself quiet. Or just away from the keyboard. Why add more to that internet noise? But hey, Anita, you can write for yourself in the first place! Here and there I go through old posts from years ago and I just love to read what was I thinking. I love all the optimism in my post. I feel, that when I’m getting older, I slowly lose some of my idealism and positive energy. And that’s the shit I don’t like. So I’m gonna write more, because it’s one of my favourite tools for gaining clarity. And when I feel clear in my head, without a fog, I’m naturally more optimistic and full of positive energy.
2015 was probably the best year of my life so far. I’m very happy with myself. I established some good, healthy habits through out the year. I had so much fun. Made bunch of smart choices. Bunch of my wishes came true, because I decided it was time for make them reality. And the Universe did its part too. That’s why I am way more optimistic now about my dreams, because I have bunch of proofs I’m capable of turning them from imagination to the real world. Yeah, life can really be exciting!
I’m happy with how I evolve as a person. Of course, there are the things I thought I’m gonna have in order by my 25 and I’m still working on those… But I found out something so exciting in December. A piece of information that helped me so much. It was such an AHA moment for me! And I’m so happy to share it with you, if you haven’t heard about it yet! It’s such a vital information for you if you are in your 20’s or if you are still a teenager.
See (I just got a deja vu in this exact moment – it was my destiny to share this with you😉 why am I so excited about this? For so many years I thought I was a loser because I just couldn’t keep up with my plans. I made a plan but just couldn’t follow it. It got a bit easier for me in the last year as I successfully implemented some good new habits. And I now know why I finally got better at it and why I wasn’t such a loser as I thought I was 😀 My prefrontal cortex wasn’t fully developed yet! It probably still isn’t (yaaay, still have a room for improvement). It makes so much sense to me! I was beating myself up for so long for not being organised enough… I felt here and there what an amazing person I am, but then again I started to feel like a shit the next day when I couldn’t keep up with my awesomeness because my focus melted away.
Now I can forgive myself for not achieving my own standards. Thank you, neuroscience, thank you!
Now I also now why I was often so overwhelmed with emotions. At 24 I realised, that so much of what I’m feeling is so childish. Like I’m still 5 years old. I’m a quite a rational person, but I often felt like my brain is one and my emotional body something completely else. All those fears and anxieties… Turns out that I was still thinking (or should I say feeling) with my amygdala in the first place. Sometimes I still do, of course but prefrontal cortex is taking over. Oh boy, that’s so nice. I love growing up. If you are parent of a teen or you work with your inner child, read this article as well.
Okay, that’s enough for today. Oh, btw, if you don’t have any new year resolutions, here’s a suggestion: Get to know yourself! 😉
I like where this post took me.
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